Philosophy in the Heat of Night

Well...hm...i seem to always begin my musings with the word 'well'..i dont know why that is..i guess its just that one word that seems to come out of my mouth when i begin to tell something.But ill get down to the utter importance of this fine blog...i dont know exactly what that is right now i just thought id write a blog.Today was intensly unintense...i was home all day,a shock there, i woke up at like 11 and my fam left for the community pool at around 1:30 and i was home alone till about..4 then..well that was basically it really now im just trying to stay cool as the sweltering heat in the devils doorstep(my room) burns me.Things are in an interesting state as of now..im just waiting the time to pack my things and head back to familiar lands and familiar faces but a place that is not home.It will be hard at first..not being able to see faces that have graced my days but it will get better with time,hopefully.I dont know what this sensation is that pricks at my heart,turning it to lead..or iron or some other unmentionably hard metal..it seems to make the emotions trapped inside,which i dont mind..i would prefer to have everything kept in and not on my sleeve but it keeps things out as well..making me feel as if i let people down by not letting them in.As i wrote that down and pressed the trusty '.' i stopped..i didnt know what to put after that..it seemed to stop the thoughts from leaking out of my fingertips and into my blog.Im just constantly thinking about..everything..i mean its all swirling around,a catatonic vortex of intelect and thought which forms the ocean around the island that is my imagination..trapped within and shows itself at times of need.Its peculiar and unknowing but yet normal and trusted...its an odd assortment of things that fuse together to form me.I realize now that this blog has been a riddle of emotions and thought and not even i can decipher its meaning nut i leave it to the readers to try..and if its figured out tell me..cuz i sure as hell dont know.