A Meeting To Remember Forever

It is now Friday and im going to be moving..sometime lol It'll most likely be the Sunday so that should be interesting.My parents are coming home tomorrow rather than today so...i dont know what that has to do with anything i thought id mention it lol.I dont have really much to say really..its oddly a quiet day in my delightful mind.OH!In about two weeks me and Dan are gonna meet!My cousin,Amber who is now my favourite relative lol,is going shopping in London so she said she'd take me!!Im so wicked excited!!Dan kind of has to come out though but if he doesnt then we'll just hang out with Amber for the day which will be just as awesome,as long as im with him ill be fine.But if he doesnt i wont be mad..i dont want to make him do anything he doesnt feel comfortable doing so so if he doesnt we have a nice day of shopping!lol and if he does come out..we're going to the park!I love the swings!!lol

Riding with the Rings of a Master.

It is Hump day today lol i thought id start with a fun and edgey sentence lol.Well today was amusing..it was basically a going away party but not.Me,Michelle and Chelsea walked down from Michelles house to Timmies where we sat for about 10-15 minutes..we were the only peaople,not working there, that were under like 60.We enjoyed our chocolate cheese cake and other goodies and,in true us fashion,we went to the dollar store lol.We bought party masks,party hats,a purple wig for me and a bag of pimp rings.We wore the rings around Hampton and then when we turned onto Michelles street we geared up and put everything else on..we got some looks and a woman stopped and asked what the occasion was..i replied with 'nothing..just a normal Wednesday' lol.Sam then drove by and stopped to talk to us,she is so awesome lol, we then touched hands and she went on her way.We arrived at Michelles house and watched the movie "Ghost Rider",which was really good..i liked it alot, and afterwards we ate some food.I was all geared up for swimming but we had to go cuz Ray and Nicolle were going to Nicolle's soccer game and he was driving us home.I got home and since then ive been talking to Dan basically..and Chels and I had to explain to my cousin how i know im gay..well how i knew,which is a wicked hard question to answer...i think i confused her but shes alright now.Now im just sitting and listening to Kelly Clarkson ,cuz im addicted to her new cd, and talking to Dan and Chelsea.Im kind of like stressing myself out for no reason..im kind of freaked cuz i dont know how im gonig to be able to see Dan and stuff and i was asking him and he was saying that he didnt care how he did he'd get to see me somehow.Hes just the greatest!I love him so much!

Out and ''Sober''

Well today's been pretty interesting..i basically came out..kind of.I put "I love you Dan' in my msn name and everyone was like 'whos dan' and stuff and mostly everyone was like 'oh really,im so happy'.There was only one that was not like that and that was my cousin and she was just shocked..she thought i was joking at first and then she was just speechless..i dont know if thats good or bad or what but oh well.My parents will end up finding out through my cousins cuz they arent the most quiet people lol but hey i dont care..i love Dan and i dont want to hide it anymore.And plus i dont think theyll be all hideously angry or anything...surprised but thats probably about it.And im sure if i go to see Dan without telling them and im gone for the day they might get suspicious lol.On a different note and probably the last lol go to www.aolmusic.com and you can listen to Kelly Clarksons new album..it is SOOO good i love the song "Haunted" and "Sober" they are so good.

Wet Hair Under Over Cast Skies

Ok so me and Michelle actually did go to see Fantastic Four and omg,probably the koolest movie ive ever seen!!!I enjoyed every second of it,which is hard to do for me cuz im just like 'no dont even' sometimes.But afterward,oh my lord, were we ever hyper..they mustve put crack on our popcorn cuz we were like all laughing and such and it was mega fun though.Last night me and Dan had a big heart-to-heart talk about stuff and then as it ended,cuz i was kinda getting sad and..well crying,Dan was making me laugh and stuff:)Todays going to be interesting...ill inform on why itll be interesting later,but that seems to be it for now.

Thoughts of love and beads

Whoa time flies fast y'all!I mean next week ill be moving!It only seems like yesterday that my parents crushed all my dreams lol Im all mixed over it all and its just weird..i must be a complete mess then..cuz im sad and happy and kinda just accepting it and stuff and ..its all weird.I might be going to see Fantastic Four with Mrs.Michelle tonight,shes checking the time just incase i cant go cuz of our guests tonight.But ya the past few days Danny's been...well he's been making me wanna see him so bad..he calls me cute and stuff and here stuff like this "why do you have to be so cute then?" that just meaks me blush majorly and go all shakey!I love him so much and im so excited to see him...we have a nap date set up too lol.He's the reason that im excited to move..besides that im..im actually indifferent to the situation now and that kinda startles me.But hopefully itll all end well for everyone and ill be fine.Oh i also got the wickedest necklace today..its a chakra necklace..its supposed to help clear your chakra and give inner peace and serenity,which i need.But its wicked kool..and from a first glance it looks like a gay pride necklace too.Oh i guess we're not going to the movies now lol but im fine with that i enjoy some alone time anyways.Oh my it just started to rain randomly:S.This blog is kinda all over the place..i dont know why..maybe cuz Danny keeps saying the cutest things and making my hands shake lolBut i guess i shall end this for now with one last thing:Daniel Fudgington lol or Daniel Hug'n'Kiss lol...i have no life lol

Blurred vision and dizzying thoughts.

Well first of all Kates party was the wickedest thing ever!!!We had a wicked water fight and a bonfire and i had my first smore,i know lol,i had whipped cream smeared in my face,pictures galore and i had my first alcoholic experience:DIt was so fun!!i loved it im so glad i went and had a most spectacular time!!But the so sad part is that i forgot my glasses in the tent and apparently when they were taking the tent down they walked all over it and..my glasses are ruined..the arm snapped right off of it so im blind and i mean jesus its been like 5 days since ive worn them and i have major headaches and im dizzy and i cant afford to get new ones either:(So im right sad cuz of it.I move next week so it showed be fun..im really excited actually cuz ill get to see Dan and stuff*blushes*cuz i love him so i hope it goes all well and the such.But thats enough complaining fro now i better go..im really all blah.

5 minute period of thought.

It is Tuesday afternoon and in about 5 minutes i have to go to the bus stop and retrieve my sister.Stupid Michelle gave me her damn cold!!My voice just sounds loverly because of it.I now have 1 more exam left then im done..i did Science today and it was pretty easy..i had an hour and 10 minutes out of the 2 hours left.English was on monday and it was also easy the only one im probably gonna have trouble with is math*shudders*its gonna be one of those things where its either easy and ill know it or ill forget it and be like 'god damn you teacher and your so called teaching abilities!!'.I signed up for my courses for next year..im taking English,Math,Biology,Media Studies,Digital..something,and Introduction to:Anthropology,Psychology and Sociology.So it should be a wicked year,coruse wise..which is not very usual to say.But it seems my 5 minutes is up so i best be off to the corner..that makes me sound like a prostitute...im not denying anythnig lol.

Philosophy in the Heat of Night

Well...hm...i seem to always begin my musings with the word 'well'..i dont know why that is..i guess its just that one word that seems to come out of my mouth when i begin to tell something.But ill get down to the utter importance of this fine blog...i dont know exactly what that is right now i just thought id write a blog.Today was intensly unintense...i was home all day,a shock there, i woke up at like 11 and my fam left for the community pool at around 1:30 and i was home alone till about..4 then..well that was basically it really now im just trying to stay cool as the sweltering heat in the devils doorstep(my room) burns me.Things are in an interesting state as of now..im just waiting the time to pack my things and head back to familiar lands and familiar faces but a place that is not home.It will be hard at first..not being able to see faces that have graced my days but it will get better with time,hopefully.I dont know what this sensation is that pricks at my heart,turning it to lead..or iron or some other unmentionably hard metal..it seems to make the emotions trapped inside,which i dont mind..i would prefer to have everything kept in and not on my sleeve but it keeps things out as well..making me feel as if i let people down by not letting them in.As i wrote that down and pressed the trusty '.' i stopped..i didnt know what to put after that..it seemed to stop the thoughts from leaking out of my fingertips and into my blog.Im just constantly thinking about..everything..i mean its all swirling around,a catatonic vortex of intelect and thought which forms the ocean around the island that is my imagination..trapped within and shows itself at times of need.Its peculiar and unknowing but yet normal and trusted...its an odd assortment of things that fuse together to form me.I realize now that this blog has been a riddle of emotions and thought and not even i can decipher its meaning nut i leave it to the readers to try..and if its figured out tell me..cuz i sure as hell dont know.

Thoughts during 4th period.

Well iam here in bbt class and it is right the wicked..well that would be a lie cuz theres like 6 here now cuz everyone basically skipped..which is what i should have done!!i mean we're doing nothing..the last day before exams so its like all...boring and no one here!its nice its like super quiet..that makes me sound kinda nerdy lol but oh well im fantastic.anyways i better get back to all my work..you know wandering aimlessly around the class and feeling chelseas extra smooth legs:)

Stressing in an open window

Well its getting closer to when i move and each day i get more and more stressed.Im just so..urgh i dont know..im just all over the place,thinking wise.Its all so much for me to take in and its hard and iver been snapping at people and not realizing it.I was pissed i missed the film festival at school..Pat's film was gonna be in it and thats why i was so stocked,Alicia said it was really funny and good but he ended up having editing problems and couldnt get it in.He seems like a wicked guy,really nice and incredibly cute:P.I got my yearbook yesterday and its basically full which is always a good sign..i still have some people that have to sign it to make it complete but ill get them soon.I cant wait for next friday/saturday cuz my friend,Kate, is having this party and its like a bbq,bombfire and camping thing so it should be right wicked.