Try To Leave A Light On When Im Gone

Oh dear me friends
It seems i attract cheaters and losers
The guy i spoke of cheated. . fun.
Im just. . im unsure at this point
I guess im just living
Not thinking about tomorrow
Not dwelling on yesterday
Just being now. . enjoying all i have
Friends that make me laugh
Things that bring me joy
No point in focusing on stupid boys and their shinanigans
Just gonna live. . be me and not anyone else
It all sounds super easy but its quite the challenge
I hope it all goes well
Oh other news i dropped my hard class and have a spare now!:)
The other classes are going swell too,no complaints
Hm what else is of importance. .
Oh!i have a favourite director now haha its Guillermo del Torro
He did Pans Labyrinth and Hellboy 2
The things he envisions are ASTOUNDING
They leave me speechless,theyre truly breathtaking
I suppose thats all for the time being!:)

Knock On wood

Iam sitting in computer engineering and its not fun
Its actually quite boring and im not having fun haha
I thought it would be cool but alas i was terribly wrong lol
Its probably my most boring class,which says alot haha
Oh me and Ian are having a date in a few weeks
Its the only time he doesnt have hockey or a while so we're taking advantage of it haha
Hes really a great guy and i think im really liking him alot
Hes really romantiv and just an all around nice and sweet guy
Hes funny too which helps haha
Oh. . and gorgeous haha but thats just a nesesity
Im lovin him more and more each day and im glad iam:)
Oh and other unrelated news i got a cell phone and im already using it a ton haha
Its an LG rumour and its sexxy of course haha
So thats all thats happened in that last little while
So pretty much life is really good for once. .hopefully it stays that way for a while,knock on wood.

I Wanna Elevate Ya Like An Elevator

So there are new developments my dear friends
So the guy i told you about asked me out tonight
I said yes
I was hesitant to and i told him that
He seemed pretty receptive so im giving this a try
Hopefully itll go well:)

Pressure Release

So i have met a guy who is insanely gorgeous
He is a hockey player. . yeaa jealous haha
Is he playing me?Is it all for sex?
Who knows really. .he could be blowing smoke up my ass
I mean hes insanely sweet but tis the distance thing again
Oh my its a very stressing factor
But im seeing how things go for now
Not holding my breath and not jumping into anything
Hopefully everything will work out for the best
For once in my life haha.

Can I Endure Some More

Well i have not written in a dogs age!Several months actually.
So much has happened that its been a whirlwind of emotions and life lessons
Well i passed grade 11 i should mention. . i dont know how it happened tho haha.
Im now going full time to school and in all honesty its not that bad. . i have some good courses
And its not as horribly torturous as i once thought.
Hm what else is worth mentioning. . oh i had a boyfriend. . he cheated and i broke up with him
Then got back together and,shockingly enough he cheated again. . scum.
Then i was with another guy. . he broke up with me a few days ago to my complete and udder shock.
It was a totaly blindside. .the kind like on reality tv shows where their jaw drops and someone smiles maniacley.
I cried like ive never cried. . it was odd because im not a crier and i just wept. . then found hilarity in television.
My friends say im better off and i half agree. . i mean i wont find someone here but i guess it wont matter when i move to college.
Hopefully Fate will bring good fortune to me for once and stop this giant crap storm of a life its created since last summer.
I dont like sounding this pessimistic and in actuallity life isnt as bad as i make it out to be but its much more dramatic and eye catching haha.
Oh id also like to mention that theres a guy in one of my classes that i find totally and completly HOT so maybe he'll be my chance at happiness. . did i mention hes gorgeous haha.
There isnt much else to mention. . i basically caught up the the last 6 months so ill try and keep this updated as possible because it actually helps me:)

Waking Up Is The Hardest Part

Well school SUCKS
The school is putting so much pressure on me and its making me stressed
Like every part of my body is aching cuz im so stressed:s
They want me to start going all day now...no not happening
Oh and they want me to do the Literacy Exam which i already did
Im not donig that cuz i already failed it and then passed it so im done
And not only that but it takes a semester to elarn stuff for it
And they told me yesterday and they want em to do it Wednesday
What a bunch of douchbags...seriously theyre high on glue
I hate that school its ghetto and full of assholes
Hopefully i can leave it cuz it sucks tremendously
Besides that im feeling shitty haha i have a cold
I sound like im gonig through puberty ahah
But im just really stressed and thats making me really moody
Hopefully ill start to feel better...hopefully
Anyways its already march and tomorrow is Easter
That is all for now i guess...oh and its 62 days till my trip in may
Goin back to N.B for some good ole fashioned awesomeness lol

Cant even function ha:)

Well somehow it is Thursday
It certainly doesnt feel like it :s
Well the past couple days i have basically mutilated myself by accident:P
I tripped on the stairs and gashed my toe open..its gross
Then i was getting something off my foot and rammed my head into a wall
Then latter that day my finger started bleeding..i dont know how i cut it
But all is well now and im nursing myself back to health haha
Top model was last night and it was fantastic of course
Idol was last night and i think Ramiele was the best:P
Thats prety much it...oh hoping for a bf still
Me and Max are really close but it wont work cuz of the distance,that sucks
Hes great and i dont wanna break his heart or anything
We shall see how it all turns out

Hypocracy in a singles world

Well we never went to the movies:(
But i did meet boys haha
And theres this one...his name is Max
He really likes me and i really like him
Problem is he lives further away then i would like
He is such a sweet and amazing guy and he likes me alot
But i dont wanna be a hypocrite and go out with him
When distance was the very reason i broke up with Dan
I dont know what to do...im a tad confused...we'll see what happens
Tomorrow is Valentines day...not fun
Well it might be...im not sure...who's to know
I got alot of work done yesterday...a whole unit basically:)
I hope to finish alot more today and the rest of the week so im not too late
Second semester started last week som im a week behind..ill finish soon
I know i can...but i dont know what i should take next semester
I have to take grd.9 geography,civics adn tehn i can take whatever else i thnk
I also need to do community service:(:(
That is the most stupid thing ever...why should i need that to graduate??
And why do i need two gym credits to graduate??:s
Anyways thats enough for now:)

Movie and cute boys:)

Havent written in a while..mostly because everythnigs the same
I might be going to the movies with Jenn and Jessie
It all depends on whether i get neough work done and the such
I hope i can go..i really want to...thats what i need
To go out with freinds...have a fun time..the such
Maybe ill see a cute guy hahaha oh i can dream ha
Thats about it really..nothing else gonig on

Notes of freedom and strength wrapping my soul

Im not gonna lie. . . im a tickle excited lol
Someone besides Alicia commented on my blog!
How fantabulous is that!
Well onto something. . . well less interesting haha
Ive been listening to ALOT of music. . . trying to piece things together
Lyrics have this way of. . .i dont know,putting evrything in percpective
I mean things are still. . . stressful but the more i listen to music the more it all melts away
I started writing again!YAY!
My stories coming along slowly but still its coming along:):)
I also drew a new picture. . . not gonna lie. . . FAB haha
Ive been chatting with alot of cool people that have given new perspectives
And theyve given me new crushes:)
But i presume that is all for now. . . when something interesting happens ill be sure to write:p

2008 sucks already...and its only the second day!

My lord. . . its only the second day of 2008 and it sucks

Ive been doing work all day. . .since 8:30

I was hopinn that it would get off to a great start. . . i was wrong

Im still all :) but slowly dreading this adismal year that is to come

I have exams in a couple weeks:(

How shitty. . .i ahev to go to that crap of a school. . . and stay the whole day:(

My exams are gonna be HARD. . . like not difficult. . . HARD

So basically im miserable and completly aware of how violently stressed iam

I have to take grade 9 geography next semester apparently. . . hopefully its easy haha

Thatt is all i guess. . . lots of work,stressage,and miserablness

Oh well im over it:)