Awkward beauty is in my heart

Ahh i havent written since Satturday
Last night i watched,as always, ANTM. . . it was devastating
My favourite. . . the one to win it all,dear Heather was eliminated
I was heart broken. . . how could they. . . she was THE best
I dont think i shall watch anymore. . . no one deserves to win
Blah im over that now
My room should be finished tomorrow if its not blizzarding haha
The trim is down there. . . sitting there cut it just needs to be put on
Its gonna look FAB i guarentee
If its done tomorow i can move in IMMEDIATLY
Im a tickle excited. . . i have a wicked frame with amazing pics
They are of my friends. . . Ashlie,Michelle,Chelsea,Alicia and more
Its amazing. . . i love it
Im so very excited for Christmas and the such. . . good times
I shall be off. . . im gonig to write a little then to bed. . . im up early tomorrow

Ahhh i need a boyfriend lol haha oh and the song Silly World by SR-71. . .wicked lol

Sciatic nerve...damage...hurtting lol

Ahhh my leg hurts:(:(:(
Theres somethnig wrong with the sciatic nerve in my leg
It starts from the lower back and goes to your foot. . . biggest nerve in the body
It hurts to walk on my left leg
When i step down pain shoots up my leg
Hurts. . . hurts alot
Oh i want my tongue pierced . . . thought id add that haha
Hopefully i can get it soonish
But that is it. . . pain and wanting haha

Everythnig i loved seems so different

Ahh im so in love with a song
Its Gardenia by Mandy Moore
It is heavenly. . . its just to die for
So. . . omg powerful and amazing!

"Im the one that likees gardenia
Im the one that likes to make love on the floor
I dont wanna hang up the phone yet
Its been good getting to know me more"

Veryy good:)
Thats basically all the news i have for now
Oh i picked Michelle's presesnt out:)
Hope she likes

Cute boyys flocking me:):P

Well me and the cute boy,Carl,are getting close
He tells me alot im cute and things like that
I like it. . . its nice to have someone say that stuff
On the other hand. . . it sucks cuz nothing will happen
Its a very tough dilema. . . very bad
At this time i shall just enjoy it because its nice:)
Theres another boy that might have a crush on me:O
Whoa i must be wicked shhweettt hahaha
Hopefully a boy close will fall under my irresistable spell haha
Oh it is snowing!
I must mention that. . . it started yesterday at 3:30 and hasnt stopped
I love snow. . . it makes me very happy
I very much love the holidays. . . they bring out the best. . . well in most
I best be gettin to my work:s
Im behind,not good
Ive made my christmas list hehee yup i sure ahve
It doesnt ahve much no it. . . just vital things haha

Song to listen to: Home -Three Days Grace

Its of extreme importance...its my first Teenage Love Affair

The AMA's were quite fantastic
Chris Brown danced amazingly as usual
Rihanna was fantastical
Beyonce won an award. . . a big one
Alicia Keys was amazing
Speaking of Alicia Keys. . . her new cd is D-lightful
Im listenin to the song Lesson Learned. . . it is very good
I also like the song Superwoman. . . very good
Im in a mixed mood today. . . im happy:) but also sad to be single
A boy added me on msn. . . he said im cute:)
He is really cute. . . really hehe but he lives far away,surprise
All the boys that seem to think im cute live far away
So sad:(
I want to draw. . . soemthing good. . . maybe soon
I have lots of work to do so i should do it hehe

Sit-ups for the body and mind

I excersised yesterday and today
It was actually quite easy
The muscles in my stomach are getting. . . more muscley haha
They are. . .not really burning but kinda ache
Sit ups can do wonders hehe
I had a sub for lunch,it was delish
That was actually all i ate. . . that is surprising. . . im not even hungry
You know what thats called. . .growth hahaha
I am swamped with work
I have a semesters worth to do in half the time
So stressful
I hope im doing well enough so far
Its very hard. . . no one told me grade 11 would be so hard
Maybe a boyfreind would help hehe
I want to have one soon. . . well not so much HAVE as be with haha
But like i say if it happens WICKED if not then ok
Hopefully that mentality will be helpful

Selfconscious of idea's of improvement

Im feeling gross
Im over weight and i hate it
Its hard to deal with it once its. . . here already
Its hard to excersice when it gets down to the negative digits
I need things that i can do during the day to help
I need to change my diet completly
I want to do this and i want to do it very,very soon
I need to not only for my health but to make me feel better about myself
People dont understand how hard it is to be overweight unless they are
People can say im not but i am. . . you may not be able to tell but iam
Its not good and lately ive had trouble breathing which totally scares me
Im gonig to do something about it effective soon
Tomorrow even. . . i need to do ti and stick to it
Ill need the motivation of Chels or Michelle to help
Maybe then ill attract someone. . . hopefully damnt haha.

Everybody live like its the last day you will ever see

Im tres blah et meh :(
Im not really sure why. . . i guess once again its all getting to me
Im not a big fan of being single. . . its pretty shitty
I see all these guys when i go out to the store
It sucks knowing that they probably dont even notice me
Is there something wrong with me?
Thats my big issue. . . im self conscious
I wish i wasnt. . . maybe thatd attract someone. . . probably not
I dont like being so down and ''emo'' but oh well
Maybe ill find someone soon
Im guessing no.

Once a whore you're nothing more

Listening to Paramore stil hehe
I love them <3
Simple Plans new song "When Im Gone" is. . . whoa different and wicked
Everyone says all their songs sound the same well you cant say that with this song
Im gonig to school tomorrow:(
I go at like 10:30 with my mom and we chat with my teacher Mr.Roehrig
He is really cute. . . from what i saw haha
Maybe ill meet a boy if im lucky. . . that would be just splendid
Im not gonna hold my breath or anything. . . if it happens it shall be great though
Whenever i get my lisence i get a cell phone:O
My dad made that deal so now im going out more and driving and want the book
I want the cell phone more then my lisence haha how sad
I picked it out. . . its pretty wicked im not gonna lie
Me and Amber have first period together which is pretty sweet\
Hmm. . . not much else to say really. . . my room is almost finished
Just the trim and its done!HOORAY!
Its beens snowing for the past 3 days yet there is hardly any snow on the ground. . . odd
My mom wants to put the christmas tree up soon haha its ritual .

She is slutty

I have been introduced to the wonder they call Paramore:)
It is a wicked group and i love them
I listen to Misery Business over and over
I cant wait to watch Americas Next Top Model tonight
My slutty cousin is here hehe
She is sick like me..we are so kolo lol

Dont you know that it would be so simple

I met a boy:P
He is very very cute
His name is Mike and he has alot of piercings haha
I like piercings. . . they are kinda sexy haha weird
It hailed and frightened me. . .all i heard was things hitting the windows
But it stopped soon after
My camera fell off my printer. . .it startled me
Damn haunted computer
Jenn gave me a good idea for a drawing
Im taking an old picture and making it modern
Im making the mona lisa modern. . . i hope it works
I also have a poem brewing. . . i might just share it hehe

I made a wallet out of a juice box:)

So my weekend was actually good
Saturday i got my things:)
Today i hung out with Pim
Amber wasnt there as per usual. . . whore
I ate cookies today. . . They were delish:p
Im not to talkative. . . blog wise
Not much has happened so i shall end with this:
The colts are winning so far hehe

Some people need three dozen roses

I have a haunted picture
Its totally frightening but awesome
There is a face in my picture. . . above me. . . in my hair
I printed the picture and when it came out the face was there
It wasnt there before
Im baffled:s
Its amazing and wicked but frightening
I like the fact of a haunted photo
Its still scarey hehe
Well tomorrow im going shopping for computer things
I require ink and photo paper
I have an amazing picture frame that is black and says memories
So i plan to print pictures of my besties to put in it
On sunday im going to the farm(my grandparents)
Pim and Amber shall be ther and me and Pim are pushing Amber
We made plans for it hehe
It sounds like an ok weekend. . . far better than past ones
Ive rediscovered my Alicia Keys cd. . . she is amazing

I dont think youd like those

It is the day after Halloween and im eating my sisters candy:p
Its my grandfathers birthday and he and my grandma are coming over
We got him a present of candy hehe
I wish i could have the candy. . . ill tell him that he probably doesnt like it
Im bored. . . i havent done any school work in about 3 weeks
Its refreshing but exhausting
I need to be stimulated mentally
Just sitting around and watching tv is not fun:(
I kinda wanna go to school. . . but only HHS
Very loyal of me haha
Anyways time is somehow passing by fast but slow
Sometimes it seems a day ahead then a day behind. . . confusing:s
Now that i think of it. . . Christmas is coming soon
I must buy presents. . . well buy presents with my parents money
I look very much to the hollidays. . . hopefully theyll be happy times